Mo Mo and New New

MO MO AND NEW NEW

Morgan. Timothy.
Pieces of me.
My babies. My mini me’s.
My words attempt to describe the void.
They fail and just crumble like a bunch of noise.
I so let you down.
Should have worn my crown.
But instead I selfishly broke under pressure
And broke outta town.
You two won’t believe the mess I made.
Didn’t realize til too late how I had it made.
Thought I was exposed to hurts and pains
But compared to all that’s happened since 2003
Really, I was just chillin in the shade.
I would rather have stayed with you
On your side of the Mississippi
With my young King Timothy
And Princess Morgan.
Boy, you guys are never borin.
Even takin you to Wal-Mart was fun.
So proud to tell people you were smiling at
That she is my daughter
And this is my son.

I hope that you don’t look at this-
This absence-
Tragically.
Maybe-just maybe-
This was the only way God could prepare me.
Maybe like a coupon
This is how he meant for it to be-
For a limited time only.
But you can learn from me
And don’t be like me
And run away
Just cause things aren’t going your way.

Be bold.
Not weak.
There is no love in these broke streets.
Look within.
Believe you can make your dreams happen.
You can.

Don’t let anybody steal your ambitions.
Aspire and aspire some more.
Me not being there
Is not an excuse for you not to go anywhere.
Yeah I messed up
But I won’t give up.

I could never get these 3 years back.
I owe you 1,000 goodnight kisses each.
And I wish everyday I could get every one back.
So I send them in my prayers and dreams
That they might still find your cheeks.

It hurts so much Tim.
It hurts so much Morgan.
Just writing your names
Brings tears, regrets, and pain.
How can I get back to you?
Back to tucking you in at night
And spending all my time with you?

I tried and tried
But I think I told one too many lies….
To myself.
Now the reality of the times has set in
And the consequences of my actions
Coupled with the actions of my consequences
Has left me wondering how I got so selfish
And left you fatherless and defenseless?
And for what?
Tim this is for you
And Morgan you too….
NOT ENOUGH!!

Deep, deep in my conscious
I carry desires burning like Santa Ana gusts
Over innocent forests.
Never letting me forget your smiles.
When I looked into your cribs
I knew from the flames in your eyes
That you are destined to be stars.
May that flame carry you wide and far.

Like dragons your power is limitless
And your wisdoms shall be timeless.
You two are so precious.
Your very presence
Has shaken creation’s existence.
Your thoughts and pains,
Triumphs and defeats,
Reverberate through the continuum
Of time and space.
Nothing has been the same since your conceptions
For God poured out his boundless love
Mercy
Kindness
And joy without hesitation.

Blessed to be filled
And filled with blessings.
May life never put your fires out.
You can show humans the way back to sanity
Away from ideology
And focused on reality.
But you didn’t get that power from me.
Lift your hands up to Jehovah everyday
And acknowledge his mercy when you pray.
He is generous Timothy.
He will crown you with your destiny.
He is kind Morgan.
He will teach you to be a respectable woman.

Always look after and nurture each other.
Timothy you must protect your sister
And Morgan, you should listen to the decrees of your brother.

By divine will you have come to this world.
Keep His will first and not that of other boys and girls.
Remember who loves you
And pray for those who don’t.
Never judge anyone
Or judgment to you will come.
Work everyday to make tomorrow better.
Work so you don’t have to work
But when you have to work
Follow the directions to the letter.

Stay on your path of light
And your lights will always shine bright.
My babies. Blessed with countless abilities.
So glad and proud to be your Daddy.
Though I don’t deserve to be.
I will always love you for eternity.
My princess Morgan.
My prince Timothy.
My mini me’s.


Quorizzzzzzzma….