Why You Go, MAMI

WHY YOU GO, MAMI

Why the FUCK you leave me…
Right when I was ready….
Ready to give you all of me.
Finally!
I was ready…
But you changed on me
And that hurt.
Rumors of your matrimony
Sound so phony.
Cuz I know you really want me
And not that otha homey
But I don’t know how to love ME.
Expecting this disaster
My tears still come faster
Than expected…
My dream deflected
Like harmful cosmic rays bouncing off our atmosphere
I experienced my greatest fear
When I opened up the casket of my heart
But instead of resuscitating life
You turned hope into more pain and despair
And how I so DO care…
I care…
When things were supposed to start making sense,
I guess I lost to a man with more experience…
A better moustache….
Or style and class…
A better ride
Or maybe a better smile…
A better kiss and touch…….
Baby I miss yo ass so MUCH!!

Thinkin bout makin love to someone else
Makes me wanna blow chunks.
The door was open but it shut so quickly.
I thought I was headed to OZ…
Getting ready to go to The Island…
I knew I wasn’t in the land of Lonely Jayhawks anymore…
But I was wrong.
Life took my existence
Crumbled it like herb
And smoked it out of a cheap glass bong.
The sticky black shit under my eyes is the residue of tears…
The remnant of burnt out relationships over the years.
I’m trying so hard to hide this pain…
Pain from waiting…
When I should have been DATING…
You…
I was supposed to be with you.
The stars aligned and brought me to you
But I wasn’t ready for you…
Not ready for commitment to the connection…
Too busy running in the wrong direction…
Searching for answers to questions I had been asking for decades.
Not realizing you were the answer was one of the biggest mistakes I ever made.
No more Kool-Aid.
Just sour Lemonade…
I should be sweetly and tenderly kissing and touching you….
Stroking, holding, embracing you….
Not spending the rest of my life
Settling for less than you…

Quorizzzzzzzma….